Oh this Thing Called Love…

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(If anyone knows me well enough, you know that I am a pretty private person with my love life.  To write this is a pretty big deal ( at least to me,) and part of my healing process.  I don’t love sharing my feelings to the whole world.  I also try to not let any guy get me too upset in public.  I think it’s the best this for me to finally let this go and just write about it.  Here we go…)

Since I’ve been in Austin, I was talking to a certain guy.  This was until recently where I was told, ” I don’t think I could ever be in love with you.” We had been talking for about 6 months. Now that I really analyze our dating situation, I should have let that ship sail out to sea months earlier.  I had a really tough time coping with the break up for a bit.  I made a fool out of myself asking him (after one too many beverages,) ” why do you feel that way” and ” I think you’re making a huge mistake.”  He responded with ” I may be making a mistake but I just don’t feel the way you do anymore. I’m sorry. I do hope we can be friends again sometime.  I’d hate to never see you again”  I never truly grasped the concept of “not feeling the same way for you” until recently when I was cast back into the dating ocean of Austin again.

I like to think I am a “date-able” person.  I meet people all the time.  They’re nice, fun, have good jobs, and seem like “good catches.”  But here’s my “catch” , I’m just not that into them.  Like my ex-man friend’s feelings for me, I don’t feel what they feel for me.  It’s a terrible realization.  I finally understand what he said to me that sad early AM time during SXSW week. You can want to like a person romantically but if you don’t feel that way, it will never reach that point. It’s depressing but true.

So, Here is the million dollar question…How do you win the game of L-O-V-E ?

The answer is pretty simple.  All you do is get back on that horse! Go out with your friends and have fun dammit.  Nobody is going to want to hang out with a miserable person.  (It will never give off a great first impression anyway.)  It’s just a break up, not WWIII.  I truly believe there IS someone for every person.  I’m going to forget the bad and just live it up. There’s no need to cry over spilled milk when there’s a whole fridge full of it in front of me.

Cheers!

Bo: The Man with No Home

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Most people around the country see homeless people every day. You may be sympathetic to them or you may be the type to tell them to “get a job.” I don’t understand the plight of the homeless.  It something I’ve never dealt with personally.  I have helped them in small ways but never really took time to talk to them.  I was walking home from a Sunday Funday this past week and I saw a homeless man. We had a small conversation.

His name was Bo. His name was the first thing I asked him. Forgive me, but I forgot where he was from originally.  Then, I asked the question I’d never thought I’d ask a person who didn’t have any place to call home.  I asked him, “how did you get to be homeless?”  He said he was laid off of his job about 6 months ago.  He used to work in construction.  When he lost his job, he struggled to get work.  He and his wife also were having issues at that time.  He was even currently, going through a divorce.  He said his wife was saying another man’s name while they were in bed together and cheating on him.  He had enough and left her.  He had been homeless for 4 months.

I told him I was sorry and continued chatting with him.  I asked him if he needed anything.  I didn’t have anything at the time but I could get him a pair of clean socks ect. He said he was fine and didn’t need anything.  He posted himself a bit off 6th and Brazos.  He never went to the shelter downtown because of all the addicts are down there.  He finds a safe place to sleep every night and that’s that.  His only possessions were two medium size backpacks.  It’s insane to me that all some people have is a bag or two.  I also had to know another personal thing…how did he get use to the begging and foraging for food in Austin?  He told me that it was just a survival thing.  You just have to do it.

For his terrible situation, he didn’t seem as down and out as I thought he would be before I started chatting with him.  In fact, he said there was an opportunity for work in his near future.  He just had to go the office and fill out the paper work.  He said he was going to go Monday or Tuesday.  I even said, “promise me you’ll go…please?” Will he go to that office for work? Who knows really.  He said he would and I hope he does for his own sake.  He was a nice man and deserves some form of small success.

I’ve always believed can you give something to a person who is homeless even if it’s not money or food.  You can give a smile or even a friendly hello.  They are often ignored and forgotten.  People forget they once had a life that wasn’t on the street.  You don’t have to be their best friend; just treat them like another human being.  You may meet a very nice person who just wants to talk for a moment because they are lonely.